This is totally off subject, but bare with me for a minute...
It's amazing to me how God puts you through trials to open your eyes to issues bigger than your own. Three years ago I found myself pregnant with twins and trying to picture our crazy life with two somewhat unexpected baby girls. My friends will tell you it was a long road, but I began to accept the blessing God had given us and started to get very excited. Seven months in, 30 weeks to be exact, my excitement was no longer. I was left with a nursery all set with two empty cribs, precious matching outfits in every color and style, monogrammed blankets, pillows, undies, and, more than anything, a super empty heart. I got to witness these little girls' lives in so many ways...from the sounds of heartbeats at the doctors office, to watching toes and cheeks and ears in an ultra sound, to feeling Reid's head constantly under my ribs on my right and Mc's feet on my left, to holding two precious 100% perfectly formed but lifeless bodies in my arms.
Reid and McAdory were born through an emergency C-Section so the next attempt at pregnancy had to wait at least six months so my body could heal. Six months later we had a miscarriage at eight weeks, just two weeks after seeing a sweet little heartbeat.
Miss Cates came into this world about eight months after the miscarriage. As you can imagine, petrified wouldn't explain the months of being pregnant. Although two months early, Cates has been a feisty fighter since she was born.
All this to say, "I've been there." Now, I'm not saying my story is the worst; I have heard much worse but, it has hurt (a lot) nonetheless. My point? This image in my mind of seeing Reid and Mc on the ultrasound is always with me...that's all I have of seeing them actually alive. In a need to do something to feel like I am putting my pain to work, I got to know a lot about the "Sav-A-Life" organization. Sav-A-Life gives expectant moms of unwanted pregnancies a chance to actually have an ultra sound and see their baby...see that little heartbeat, their fingers and toes in perfect form, their thumb in their mouth, etc... Being on the "mommy" side of things, I can't imagine a mom wanting to end a pregnancy at any stage. Reid and Mc were just as much alive at the eight week ultrasound as they were at the 30 week ultrasound. I cherish those pictures.
Don't misunderstand me...I was never really for or against abortion. It wasn't something I thought about. I'm not here to judge. If I had found myself pregnant and unmarried, I probably would have explored all my options. Knowing what I know now...holding three perfect premature babies in my arms (Reid, McAdory and Cates), there is no question in my mind that life is life...from conception to birth. I have such a great respect now for those moms who got pregnant unexpectedly and actually chose life. What a HUGELY unselfish, mature and Godly decision.
I say all of this to ask you to support Sav-A-Life. Please help expectant moms of unwanted pregnancies understand the gift God has given to them. Every dollar you donate goes towards LIFE; life only God can create. In honor of your life, in honor of your mom's decisions, in honor of your child's precious heartbeat you got the blessing to see on an ultrasound, in honor of the child you didn't choose, in honor of the child who's parents don't know to choose...whatever the reason, please support this amazing ministry and help parents understand what a heartbeat really is...LIFE.
The Sav-A-Life walk is at the Montgomery Zoo on May 5th. We would LOVE to actually see you there and would LOVE your contributions as well. You can click the link below to donate online and truly help save a little one's life.
Ashley's Sav-A-Life Fundraising Page
Thanks for baring with me through my story and for letting me throw a little off-topic subject into our blog world. If you have a child and have an extra five seconds today, put your ear to your little one's chest and listen to that little heart beat for a few seconds. It's the most glorious sound I've ever heard. Thank God for LIFE and for CHOOSING to give YOU such an amazing gift!!
[caption id="attachment_5673" align="aligncenter" width="620" caption="Cates, 26 week ultra sound, LOVE those chubby cheeks and those little toes."]
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